lazarus

lazarus is my conscience
i think of him when i’m bad
he taught me all about religion
the little bit that i had

he gets inside my head and makes me crazy
i can’t take too much of him
it’s like i have to censor my own thoughts
can never follow a whim

if i forget to feel guilty
then lazarus is there
the minute that i start to feel good
cause i got something to share

he shuts me down and then reminds me how
i made that promise to god
sometimes i think that he’s a part of me
i guess you might find that odd

and lazarus delves inside my mind
he’s always instantly aware of everything i find
i wish he’s go away forever and let me be
i worry too much of what lazarus thinks of me

why did he step into the picture
things were so simple before
lazarus just gave me a sign
i wonder what that was for

i guess i’ll never understand
what lazarus knows
all that ‘why’ing and sighing and crying and trying,
denying and lying and prying and buying and dying….
yeah, that’s just how it goes…

and lazarus delves inside my mind
he’s always instantly aware of everything i find
i wish he’s go away forever and let me be
i worry too much of what lazarus thinks of me

written by joseph herbert, copyright 1999